January 23, 2018 at 3:58 pm #356
I was first introduced to kratom after being discharged from the army. My time in the army was shortlived, and wore heavy on myself. I ended up leaving very depressed and bound to alcohol to sleep. I have always had insomnia, but post-army was when it really cranked up. The doctor prescribed me heavy sleep medicines, anti depressants, focus-meds, anti anxiety, and essentially anything I asked for. Little did she know I was experimenting with other substances to aid my head at this time.
Over the course of about 2 years, I dabbled with “soft” drugs. Ecstacy here and there, a little cocaine, LSD, mushrooms, mescaline, etc. This is where I wanted to remedy myself in the form of having a good time.
As time passed, I began to get serious anxiety attacks, so I put most of the drugs down and remedied only with alcohol. I was drinking every night. by this time, though, I had learned about kratom, tried it a numerous amount of times for sleep-aid/wellbeing, but my faith was not in the plant to help myself cope; I wouldve rather party. My drinking ramped up until I was hospitalized mid 2014, and thats where I finally understood I either need to put drinking aside for now, or never drink responsibly again. I was in need, though, of something to fill that void. Coincidentally enough… I had broken my hand and the doctors were not shy of prescribing me oxycontin.
At first it was 2 pills a day.
I had met a girl who I was living with that wanted one for her “excruciating” teeth pain.
so then it was both of us using, filling, and using the oxycontin.
Once I had ran out, I was in no mind. but she was fueled. I tried to buy kratom and tell her that it was better, but she kept going out and buying more oxycontin off the street. To my stupidity, I accepted, and the opiate addiction took off.
We began really wanting these pills, and somewhere in the mix, we found the ultimate cheaper alternative.
we were snorting heroin up until we broke up a few months later.
I still wanted it, and I found it. I found my own supplier, and kept running with the substance, along with crack cocaine, for some time after, before ultimately quitting and switching to suboxone.
Suboxone was a whole different rodeo, though. I still paid for it, and because of problems at appointments, I would go without for weekends at a time. it was torture to be sick every so often, and then chained to another crutch. I also paid no mind to doing other drugs on occasion.
The beginning of 2017 was when I decided it was time to quit suboxone, with it in mind that I would be achieving opiate withdrawal, and scared into never touching an opiate again.
Itook my last 8mg suboxone (never tapered), closed my appointments, bought 4 ounces of kratom, and waited.
turns out 4 ounces is not enough for withdrawals. so after about 4-5 days into withdrawals, I white-knuckled it. and succeeded.
I took a complete sobriety break for about 5 months, and then switched to kratom for regular maintanence.
I never looked back, and I dont plan on doing so. There are days where I need kratom, and days where it isnt so much necessary. This plant saved my life, because I dont know where I would be if it werent there for my disposal.January 25, 2018 at 1:25 pm #361
<3 Glad you’re still around after everything.
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